Thank you. I know it has to be done, and it has to be done simply. I actually did not hear from him all day yesterday. I was out and about with D10 and friends (I dropped so much money this weekend on entertainment for the little one, she is not a cheap date, but we had been stuck in so much, I wanted to get out, so I didn't think much of it, and it was kind of nice,
I came to a bit of ephiphany about a quality I find very attractive in men. PASSION. When they are passionate about something in their lives. One guy was very passionate about raising his daughter. We could share in that passion. Another guy was passionate about his business. FF was very passionate about his career. We used to watch youtube videos which were firecalls he was on and we he would explain everything in detail, and he would light up. Kind of how I get when I talk about medicine. Which we also shared, because he is an EMT.
This guy doesn't have any passion. The only time I ever saw him light up about anything was his online phone game. Not about life goals, careers, kids, or even the future.
He texted me this morning when I was in a meeting, but I haven't responded yet. I don't know that I want to do it at work, and I have IC after work. Maybe I will wait until tonight. I am also feeling like cr@p. I have my yearly cold.
I do believe Vanilla, that my life circumstances has not taken me in an environment with great guys. I was not even 30, and divorced with a baby and men around that age aren't looking for that kind of responsibility/drama. now I am at another weird place. I figure I need to just keep going and live my life and see where it takes me and who it leads me too......
