Had a tough couple of days. Constantly engaging her to talk about her feelings. No empathy, no kindness, brutal assessments about me that I refuse to deny because they are mostly true. I am taking all the blame. I can do no right. Kids are noticing her behavior. I want to prptect them from our issues. Comforted our oldest d11. She told her mother, " I feel like you talk to me like you talk to dad. I heard you tell him you dont love him. Do you love me?" Wife is angry, not happy. Blames me further for all of this. Demands space...tells me i am ignoring her pushing her to divorce. I try not to say anything. My words are soft and i still get told i am an idiot. I cry opely about my situation. More controlling behavior according to her. My daughter cries and my wife looks at me with fury.
I must detach even more. I must shut my mouth entirely. Now I must observe without being tied to the outcome. Smiles earlier this week are replaced with threats of divorce. Words kill us and any chance at us. Yet we continue to " try for the kids".
