In, I'm sorry to hear about your sitch. You will hear a lot of good advice on this board. Other the counseling, what other things have you done/tried?
Be sure to read all the links in Cadet's post, they help, and work. GAL, detach (lovingly), 180. And no R talks, validate if she initiates (validation is the hardest for me, my H has been the one to initiate any R talks, and I take the bait every time). You'll get through this, the key is to get through any be ready for any outcome.
Me-44,H-44 S21,S19,S17,D13 M-22,T-29 (off and on prior to M) BD:12-20-17 (H said he had things to work out in his head) H moved out:3-4-18