Karma, isn't what we think it is or expect it to be. It isn't pay back inflicted from the outside in. Karma is from the inside out.
Karma is reality and it bites.
Karma is an empty heart, not an empty wallet.
Karma is not a wedding ring or failed R, Karma is being incapable of having intimacy that is real. Karma is failure to connect to your children but love bombing other children.
Karma is pretence and not authenticity.
Karma is having a mask with no true personality not being superficially charming.
Karma has already arrived and was there all along. If you look very careful your ex is already in Karma.
Waste, all of this isn't waste, nor was your love, for you 25 had love and hope. You stood because you needed and wanted to and that was your desire at the time. You did the best you could with the insights you had at that time, you have beautiful children. You had love. Love is never a waste not ever.
You can beat yourself up if you wish, nothing will change about the past, it is as it is. It is gone never to return. The love stays with you, it was love for you too and the fact it fell on Alaskan wastes does not mean it wasn't real or valuable. It has the value you gave it, and actually it doesn't matter who that div is, because you are the love you gave, it is in your very cells and being. You have the treasure in your heart and that is the very best it can be.
And now you are free, it's unfamiliar, but the gift of love is not unfamiliar. Choose to see the ability to love as the greatest of all gifts. Love and freedom what a combination. You dearest 25 have the most important thing of all, yourself.
Celebrate, it is going to be glorious, I Internet promise.
Post traumatic growth beckons for you, I see it clearly for you. And it is rare, embrace your shift, your higher power is connecting for great growth.
Those are my thoughts and as the impressive Zephyr says, now you know and can never unknow.
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Freedom is just another word for nothing left to loose. V 64, WAW
