LBS - MLC H who's an alcoholic

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Wow! I am blown away by the kind responses and follow up by you lovely members. I haven't been here in a while because there's just so much going on.

I have mediation on Tuesday w/my soon to be X, moving closer to the D and I've been procrastinating getting all of the paper work together for that. I do feel overwhelmed, and I've put everything else first. However, I'm also trying to build a life for myself: Job hunting/interviews - I'm in software so each time I have to learn a new technology. Still working my current job.

Being a single mum now, and caring for my teen D, who's emotions go up and down every day, but she stays fairly quiet because she doesn't want to rock the boat. Sometimes, I'd rather her just yell at me. I just try to hold her, when she'll let me, whilst we watch TV in the evening. That's the best we can do together right now. I am learning to keep a zip lip and just listen when she finally does talk. It's usually about friends or school work though, and not her dad and I.I can only hope the counselling at the school is working for her. She refuses to go to Al Anon groups with me. (There's one on Sat. AM which includes children.)

All I can do is work my steps to recovery right now. I haven't really been that selfish before, but this is a time to be I think.

I have men that come around who want to date me. Some are good, some are bad, and some are in-between. I think it's too soon, but I do crave a close relationship with a man as well. I have one special friend who is an in-between, but I can see that he's got issues too. Doesn't everyone, though. I don't want to settle, though, and I don't want to make mistakes that would hurt me or my daughter, and our future. I've asked God to take the compulsion for closeness with a man away, but it's still a struggle.

Men are so very different in this department. They are able to be working on a relationship w/someone else in the background, whilst also exiting the one they're currently in. Hopping from one to the next seemingly without too much of a care.

I wan to see the light at the end of the tunnel for sure!