I have also come to a sad realization. I don't think I am meant for a relationship. For whatever reason, I haven't had one decent one in my life and I am 38.
Because I know misery loves company, I'm going to point something out. I don't believe that you've never been happy in a R, so I'm going to guess that when you say you haven't had one decent one in your life, I'm guessing you are thinking about how they ended.
I just want to point out that as far as I know, not one of us in here is M, every one of us found our way here because our S cheated on us or walk away from us, and very few people break up from good R amicably, at least I haven't ever done that.
I guess what I'm saying is I would generalize my life to say I haven't had one decent R in my life either, but I had decent moments in my R's.
Just keep being awesome so that "The One" can't help but notice you when he sees you.
As for worrying about your D, I get it and I too am at a loss about how to try and teach them what a healthy R looks like. When my son told me that his biological father had separated from his W, I asked if they were getting D (they had been separated for a little while) and he replied of course, they're separated.
I did my best to try and explain the choice of loving, and that problems can be worked through and that D should always be a last resort. But I don't know if any words can overshadow the R dynamics that he's witnessed with all his parents.
M - 9 1/2 years 5/5/16 - Bomb drop - 3 week EA 10/31/16 - We sold house 01/10/18 - D Finalized
