Thank you, Juju. I am praying that what I give my daughter is enough and she doesn't have daddy issues. I can see these issues extending into bad relationships with men, where she is treated like crap and tries to win them over. I hope to God I can show her how to be a strong woman and not take that kind of crap.
Don't you notice how maybe at one point we thought it was us, but when we see them repeat the same behaviors with our kids, we realize it is THEM. Maybe we didn't always handle it the way we should, but my ex treats our daughter the same way he treated me and from what my daughter says, he also treats this wife like that. It makes me so incredibly sad and guilty feeling.
Anyways, my state is mass chaos. We got over 2 feet of snow, there are tons without power in the freezing cold with a weeks restoration time (thank god we didn't lose it again) but we have no cable/internet for at least a week, may that be the worst of our problems. This one heck of a March. It's nice to see neighbors offering up warmth and shelter, I offered anyone to come by on our towns FB page. If just to warm up or get a shower. We are a small town where everyone knows everyone so its safe. The kids had no school for 2 days, and a delayed opening today. It's just awful and very unsettled. I am back to work today. Having dinner with friends tonight. I need ot unwind with some adults for a bit! I think ex might feel a little bad because he is willing all of a sudden to take D10 to her early Dr's apt tomorrow. I'll meet them from there and take her form there.
I have also come to a sad realization. I don't think I am meant for a relationship. For whatever reason, I haven't had one decent one in my life and I am 38. Maybe it's just not in the cards. Or maybe "my time" is when I am older and my kid is out of the house. I am seriously done dealing with losers and maybe there is something about me that just doesn't make relationship material. Loyalty only gets you so far, I guess.
