You guys hijack all you want . All of this talk about dating got me motivated yesterday to create my first on-line dating profile. Now before you all jump in and tell me it's too early, your right it is. However in roughly one month we go to court and the D will be final so once that is complete and considering we have been separated for almost a year I think I will be ready. I will admit I did a brief search last night and initially I liked what possibilities I saw. My STBXW has just made the biggest mistake of her life and she has no idea how big the fire inside me burns
With that said I have rebounded from the engagement ring thing and now I don't really give a [censored]. Just another step in the process. Met some friends out for dinner last night, played basketball this week, got a lift in this morning and got elbowed in the mouth yesterday that did not feel good while going up for a rebound. Not sure what I am doing tonight but my girls have soccer tomorrow so that will be fun. Need to get some yard work done so I will probably tackle that this weekend as well.
I have my girls all next week for Spring Break so I got some fun activities planned for them highlighted by going camping Wed thru Fri.
Saw the STBXW yesterday at open house for our D's school. It was cool, she called me honey once which was funny but outside of that I was as cool as the other side of the pillow. She is a weak individual and my views on her have changed drastically. I really find myself not giving a crap around her any more so while I still DB for myself I no longer watch everything I say and honestly I could really care less what she thinks. She made a comment about getting a boob job with some of her equity proceeds from the house and I just laughed and said stop by when they are healed so you can show them to me. I know it's pursuing but I don't give a flip.
I am really starting to feel what everyone has said along about finding happiness through the pain, seeing the sunshine on the other side of the storm, feeling that sense of accomplishment as I have no regrets about how I have conducted myself and how I have held strong to my vows until the end. I can finally start to see the fog lift.
I have my house, my girls, my two 14 yr old dogs, my friends, my family, my health and finding someone to share my life with would just be icing on the cake.
. All of this talk about dating got me motivated yesterday to create my first on-line dating profile. Now before you all jump in and tell me it's too early, your right it is. However in roughly one month we go to court and the D will be final so once that is complete and considering we have been separated for almost a year I think I will be ready. I will admit I did a brief search last night and initially I liked what possibilities I saw. My STBXW has just made the biggest mistake of her life and she has no idea how big the fire inside me burns 