Just a Vanilla Change 35

[Vanilla]

Final Goodbye to the G

Yesterday I forwarded the last cheque in settlement to you. The last of my resentment settled with every pound I paid.

I married for love, you married for money and kept on taking. When I would not give you took and stole. You used abuse tactics and you really frighten me.

So what have I learned from you and being with you?

I have learned how strong I am, I have learned I am a survivor. I have learned to love me more.

Love is never wasted, that love I had was real and a wonderful thing. Precious and it's your loss not mine. I still have that love.

I have learned how to recognise these flags and how to stay out of trouble. I have a very close connection to family and friends. I have learned who is my tribe. I have learned it is OK to be V with all her faults and foibles. I have learned to receive love and to be authentic. I have learned to walk to the pain. I have learned how to choose love even when I am in pain.

So G, goodbye. I have no doubt that you will come after me for money again as you have said so and I will fight you like I will fight any unfair attack. As if you were any other obnoxious being.

I do not forgive you, I have no need, when you are faced with your mortality then ask your higher power to forgive you. Not my concern. I neither wish you well or ill. I hope you behave better for the sake of those around you but really it is not my concern.

Goodbye, farewell, adios, go away and stay away.

I am breathing and have moved on.

Completely done.

V