I have no idea whether your conversation about what you are thinking and feeling is going to upset the applecart or not. I'm wondering what is your purpose in setting such a conversation up in the manner in which you did it? What does doing it that way do for YOU? I'm merely offering an alternative way of having these kinds of conversations.
BTW, there are lots of changes and growth in this universe that are amazing, yet do not involve drama. I have no idea whether your growth in this area is going to be filled with pain and drama. But I do see the way you went about this as making drama more likely. If the growth is going to require pain and anxiety then trust me, it will happen without your doing anything to help it along.
The pain is not the birth.
Best wishes, MPT, whose done natural childbirth with no drugs and had an epidural. In both cases, the children were born.
