Hanging On (Saying ILY Pt. 2)

[mtb1981]

W called and I answered. Decided to mix it up a bit since I usually let it go to VM. She said she was not going to be able to move into her new place until Tuesday. Her original plan was to be moved in by this weekend and she wanted the kids to stay with her. I just listened and didn't really say anything. She apologized for calling at 1:00 in the morning last night (said she accidentally hit my number when going through her call log). I told her it wasn't a problem. That I was asleep anyway and didn't notice until this morning. She then asked if she could come by tomorrow night before she had to go to work (she has to be at work at 9 PM)so she could see the kids and tuck them into bed. I told her that would be fine. Then we were done talking. She sounded kind of sad on the phone, but I didn't ask anything....

About 10 minutes later, I realized that the kids and I had planned on meeting my parents for a fish fry at the kids' school tomorrow evening. So I sent her a text saying that I just remembered we were supposed to meet them for dinner and she was more than welcome to come with us if she wanted, otherwise we would be home after that. She texted back that she didn't think it would be a good idea. That she would love to, but thought it would be uncomfortable. I sent back that if she would love to, then she should. She would have to be around them at some point anyway and whatever she wanted to do was fine. She responded that she did want to, but she thinks they are mad at her. I told her my parents love her more than she knows and like I said, if you want to, come.... if not, don't. Just want you to know all of us, including the parents would love for you to come. She responded that she would let me know tomorrow morning and if I haven't heard from her if I would text her and remind her.... I texted back, "If you're lucky..." (This was always kind of an inside thing with us. Anytime she asked something, I would say that and she would respond, "I'm always lucky!") So she responded with, I'm always lucky!!!. I sent back a winky face, and she sent back "lol" with a smiley face blowing a kiss with a heart. I left it at that...

I'm not considering this as pursuing (even though it kind of is), but instead letting her know that the door is open. I'm trying to be the lighthouse. And I read nothing into the kissy face. If anything, now I was the one that left some crumbs and she took them, and I'm going to leave it at that. I have no expectations...