I feel like you are devaluing yourself by saying "hey go enjoy your relationship with a girl half your age. I will just wait right here for you till you have your fun or she dumps your ass for someone her age. But not until after you spend our savings (and kids savings?) on trips and jewelry for her"
You have given him permission and why?
Why are you worth so little?
Get some pride and take your life back in a way thats gonna make you feel good. If you dont respect yourself he never will. No one will. And by allowing that, you are not respecting yourself.
Evaluate why you would even want a man capable of that back in your life. Im assuming you have been a loyal and faithful wife? Thats worth a lot. And there are many good men out there that will appreciate it.
I would never date a man that did that to his wife. He is not a prize you should be trying to win back. He is disloyal and uncommitted.
