Last night with H at home went ok. He talked about health problem he's having, asked question about medication. I didn't have much information to offer. We sat down to dinner, he complimented that it was good, I said thank you.
After dinner I sat down to watch TV before cleaning up. After everyone else left the room he comes to me and says that he is trying to have a normal evening, with normal conversation. And if I am not going to try for some normalcy then he won't even bother coming over. He said at dinner I didn't even acknowledge him and I mumbled to him when he said something to me. WTH?? I said I'm sorry he sees things that way, I am trying to be normal too, I said I'm sorry if you said something to me that I didn't hear, or if you didn't hear my answer to something you said. End of it.
H went to bed first, I went to bed after cleaning kitchen, he fell asleep few minutes later. Again, all night long, his hand was on my hip, like every night for the past 22 years (with the exception of the last 2 months).
Me-44,H-44 S21,S19,S17,D13 M-22,T-29 (off and on prior to M) BD:12-20-17 (H said he had things to work out in his head) H moved out:3-4-18