V......thanks . I got some hugs and kisses last night at soccer so that stirred my emotions (In a good way)
I never really took a deep look at myself before I started on this journey but as I have continued down the path I realized a lot of things about myself. About 2 months after this went down my neighbor came over and he was just lending an ear as I was venting to him, struggling to make sense of it all. He told me that I was a great man, far better than him, and if something ever happened to him he would want his W to be with a man like me. I was kind of embarrassed at first, didn't know what to say (it felt kinda awkward :)) but I drew strength from that as I continued down this path and it helped me realize that I will be ok and that I am a great dad and person.
J....it does feel good to stay. It feels right, hard to explain. It is my D's home, the only one they have ever known and if I have to struggle a bit financially to keep them in it then that is what I have to do. Maybe not forever but at least until things calm down and they get more comfortable with the situation.
The only trigger for me is my girls . My W no longer has that effect. Every time I think about them and the love that I have for them it moves me every time. You see Jim, you just did it to me again
. I got some hugs and kisses last night at soccer so that stirred my emotions 