I've become aware of the need to process things (external events, other people's actions) in a way that has the least impact on my life as possible.
It's hard, I know that I'm a very emotional person, and I absolutely need to live through things wholeheartedly to be able to process them and then free myself from them. So I find it difficult.
But maybe there's a way of honouring who I am and at the same time keeping myself upright in the process?
I've also become aware that I need to stop myself from jumping to the worst possible conclusion. And then getting defensive and angry. I've seen myself do that a number of times over the past couple of years, and I feel like it's not doing me any favours. It's not a positive reaction and it's not helping.
And then from that, I need to stop the negative internal chat. I've caught myself doing that a few times, and the cost of that sort of chat on me and my life is way too high.
In fact, it was realising that I needed to stop the negative internal chat that lead me to realise that I need to stop jumping to the worst possible case scenarios.
There we go. Not bad realisations to come out of the past couple of months.
