New LBS, not sure if he's having LMC

[meg24]

I know I shouldn't fall for the R talk. But I can state that I do not start them. Each of the last few times for the last few weeks, he has started them. I just am not good at the validation part and walking away. Perhaps because that is one of his original complaints, that I don't communicate well enough, so I don't want to appear as if I'm doing "more of the same". I don't know. Maybe I'm just week. I don't have any problem, however, refraining from calling and texting.

Hopefully when he comes up tonight I can hold my ground. My strength and independence was one of the things that he was originally attracted to, so why is it so hard for me to get that back?

As far as GAL, I just spend lots of time with my kids. They're all big, so I know it's not necessary. But I like hanging out talking with them, and they seem to come out of their rooms and talk to me a whole lot more when H isn't there. Other than that, I am planning a road trip to see a very close friend of mine that I haven't seen in about 2 years. She knows both H and I inside and out, and knows I need her comfort.