Even if I fear your critics now, I want to be honest. I was so frustrated today due to the entire sitch that I couldn't help weeping and telling my H how deeply desperate I feel and begging to reconcile. For the first time, he didn't react rejectingly or cynically but listened carefully. Still, he insisted that he is firmly determined to separate and to divorce and recommended me to accept reality.
What will I do now? I will go back to LRT and validating. Am I insane that I'm still not able to get rid of my hope? I mean he is so clear and I am too weak to stop doing what is definitely not working.
