There is nothing wrong with you, besides being a good person, loving and caring, and believing in others to be the same. Right now you need to protect yourself, put away hopes, wishes, love and focus on yourself. YOUR well being, YOUR needs, YOUR financial protection. Pretend the person you knew is dead, at least for now. Grieve and take care of yourself.
If you don't mind I am still not sure about the situation. Assuming you had funds for a lawyer what would that get you in the short and long term financially that makes the legal expenses worthwhile? And do you have any idea of what kind of fees would be needed to get you there?
