New LBS, not sure if he's having LMC

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Sunday evening with H home was disaster. I was fine until he asked how I was doing. I just seem to lose all self-control and progress when he's around.

Yes, we had R talk. Bad. At one point I mentioned that it felt like there was someone else paying attention to him. I mentioned that I don't understand what's going on because we're at a point in our M where we can focus more on each other since kids are getting older, and now he wants out. He totally bypassed the comment about someone else, jumped in on the focusing on each other. H said, again, that maybe it is MLC. He's been thinking about the future, how we're so opposite, until know we've had kids as diversion, but as we get older less diversions, how will that oppositeness bring us together? I told him just because we individually don't chose a particulare activity, we do it for the ones we love because we love that person. He seems to think we have to WANT to do the same things, rather than doing them because we love each other.

Anyway, H is going to come home a few nights a week for now, for the sake of s21. He's going to be home tonight. I'm not really looking forward to it. He texted me this morning, "try to have a good day, I'll see everyoe tonight". Don't know why, since it was already arranged.