I don't want a divorce

[KitCat]

Steve - those are excellent points!!!

I know I am NOT out of the woods. While I see improvement he is still cautious. H hasn't talked about R and he certainly isn't saying I love you.

He is making an effort to let me know he wants to do things with me. I will take it slow and steady and not have any expectations.

I will need reminded that their are still bad days ahead but I have this weird layer of calmness about me. I'm not in panic mode anymore. I'm open to a better stronger marriage that will last for years beyond the kids but I also know that while I don't want to be alone I won't die.