J9, I'm happy you'll be able to keep the house. It'll provide some stability for your kids. If you do need to sell later, you can do it on your own terms and at your own pace.
Crying is a mixed blessing in my book. It totally [censored] and it hurts. But it's good to be in touch with your feelings and acknowledge them. I recently read that people who are emotionally the healthiest are those who experience a wide range of emotions.
Me-47,XW-43 S13,S16 M:18 BD:4-23-17 W filed:7-17-17 (5 months of in-house separation hell) W moved out:1-6-18 D granted:2-15-18 Decree signed:3-29-18