Gordie, you aren't weak. You are an inspiration to all who post here. You are doing everything possible to save your marriage and I hope you can....but...if you can't and you walk away, at least you will be able to do so and know you've tried everything.
Sit quietly, the answers will reveal themselves when you least expect them to. The past is gone, the present is a gift and you need to focus on today, allow the future to reveal itself when it is ready.
