Gordie #17: deliberately not divorced

[Gordie]

Neutral,

You are right. I don’t need external validation to know that I am a good guy. And I really can’t expect anything from w who has checked out of our relationship. I used to be a confident man. What happened to that confidence? I think it shattered at b d and I am o so slowly rebuilding it.

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Journaling:

So I had an ultra realistic dream. I woke up and thought it really happened. That she came to my room and we made up and made love and it was beautiful. And then I realized that no, I was still alone and nothing happened. I am still on my journey alone.