Gordie, DnJ, thanks a lot. Just KNOWING that there are people out there that are going through similar things helps me. It helps me because i know i am not alone and i firmly believe that one of the worst emotions a human being can feel is loneliness in all it's iterations, so this helps a lot!
I understand that my situation seems to be somewhat different in that she still stays here and did not move out. Well i guess it has to do with the fact that she knows she can't just leave because it would cripple her financially and she still has the sense to not let that happen. She also wants to keep the house if we were to separate so she'd kinda HAVE to be on at least semi good terms with me to negotiate something ugh.
Recently though i get the feeling that she now kinda wants the best of both worlds, meaning her new exciting teenage life AND the stability of a comfy home, her son and me included.
And surprisingly enough, i can deal better with that situation than i thought for now. I do however, snap on occasions, where i find myself really distressed emotionally which reminds me that this cannot go on forever!
Patience, patience, patience! is the mantra that i keep repeating to myself over and over again these days. This is not the life i want for myself, but it is the life i am willing to accept for now until she snaps out of it either one day or gradually...
That is my hope, not sure just how LONG i can keep this up though !
