The problem is first communication because she’s very adamant to talk about her problems or our problems as a couple. She’s never willing to face the discussion about her ambivalence and our lack of intimacy. We barely talk to each other and lately I have become more and more withdrawn. Today I told her straightforward I would rather to separate than having an affair because that fix nothing contrary creates more problems and suffering from PTSD I can tell you that handling drama is very challenging and having an affair is not even in my thoughts. I need peace and support. Is kinda sad to be with someone that makes you feel alone. And instead of understanding my point she lashes out bringing the good weekend like look what I did. I do all that every day and more and I’m never bringing it out, that’s not the point, I don’t even have any money ever to treat myself, I have no time to pursue a hobby and on top of that I’m pretty much like a roommate with financial ties. I have to recognize I’m mad about all this and I am the one wanting out. Don’t get me wrong I’m doing my best to save this but I see no progress. I feel we’re just back at the beginning when all the problems started and nothing else. There’s no trust because honestly I don’t trust her still and she’s not wanting to face the intimacy issue because that’s exactly were the affair feels more. She changed a lot and very drastically and now she drinks more, listens to unusually love songs and stuff. And more and more distant and when I bring it up she snaps. Men I’m feeling discouraged. I don’t know if is just part of the process or I’m taking it to hard on myself but I guess is painful.
