Hi everyone, still undecided on the house thing. Got some new home owners insurance quotes that will help reduce my monthly payments and looking everywhere else I can in my budget to adjust and see if I can afford to stay. So we shall see how it pans out.
Had the kids all last week and took them to the W's place last night. My youngest got to me when she said good bye to me, she is so sweet. I told them I loved them in the car and she told me she would see me next week. I told her I would see her at soccer on Tuesday then as she was walking away with the W, going into the gate that leads into her apartment, she turned back around and said "Good Bye Daddy". I held it together in the moment but lost it on the way home.
I hadn't cried in quite some time and then I felt my blood start to boil. I got really angry but I feel better today. I will never understand any of this. I went to the gym this morning and got a good workout in so I feel better.
Nothing new on the W front. No contact outside of kid coordination stuff, finances and D logistics. A little over a month to go before we see the judge on 4/11 and it should be final. Her parents came to town this weekend, the ones she doesn't speak to. The flew in from CA and told my W's brother to let me W know as she doesn't speak to them. Last time they came to town we were still together and they just randomly showed up at our doorstep one afternoon. Anyway, she sent me a text to let me know so I would be aware if they randomly showed up at the house. I said if they did I would handle it. I guess she ended up going to meet them at their hotel however I don't know what transpired, I didn't ask. None of my business any more.
Other than that still trucking along, I am able to focus more at work these days. Looking forward to the first soccer games of the season ( I am helping coach ) and I will have them all next week for Spring Break. We rented a cabin and are going camping for a couple of days.
My W is off all next week but she made it a point to remind me that it is my week. I have no idea what she is doing but obviously she doesn't want to spend it with her kids. I am trying really hard not to judge but it definitely gives me some insight on where her head is at.
Anyway all for now, still feeling strong, I still feel she is a fool and I know in my heart I will never pursue or chase her. There is not much desire to do that any more. I will not waiver and am still very confident with who I am, what I have to offer and the man I have become over the past 9 months. I always knew I was a good man but now I feel like a good man on steroids
