Final chapter part deux

[exquisitetobe]

Thank you Job, Andrew and Gordie for your response! I really appreciate it!

Job, i asked D17 today if her father approached the subject of the table and exercise equipment. He did and she said ok.

My face must have shown desappointment cause she asked "why?" in a concern way. I said "because i am the one who will be stuck with this after you leave. You accept it, you are responsable of it meaning you take it with you or you sell it. She answers: " imagine telling him i sold it to buy some Kentuky Fried Chicken. How p@ssed he would be.. we laughed and i told her not to tell him the last part evenif it is what she would do with the money.

I am 95% sure it is a set-up to keep me here.

Andrew, you made a valuable point when you said " having someone else take care of me".

Since i was a "staying at home mother and wife", ex-h took the role of taking care of us.(not in a parent-husband kind of way.Only making sure we had everything we needed to get the job done. Did i dare ask for his help. He would get angry and he would get away with it. (Everyone walking on eggshell).

Ex-h does not see me for who i am. He does not see me as independant. He is seeing the co-dependant woman he walked away from yet when i point out who i am and tge reality of my situation, he gets all confuse and goes right back in the tunnel.(hiding from me and using the children for info). A game i am very tired of.

Gordie, you are right. I do have a choice and i have adressed D17 about it. It is in her hands, not mind.

One sentence my "entourage" hear me say often is: "it is easy to have things when you do not have to take care of it."

Exemple: pets.. pool.. house.. car.. etc.
But when you neglect these things, they deteriorate, they crumble, they die...

This afternoon, after the talk with D17 and a visit to S19, i had the doormat feeling. Son's March break is this week. He announced to me that his plan for the week was spending a day at his father. Asking him for a ride here the following evening to sleep over and leave with my car in the morning to go visit his gf's parents. From there, he would meet us in North Bay the next day to visit D22. So we are now using 2 cars to go down. Kutching $$$$$$!!