Wow. So it's been a bit, I guess. I just wanted to share a thought on forgiveness or whatever it is when you stop trying to get back at someone and start trying to detach.
My birthday was Wednesday. I was feeling all the love from everyone (even XH) as my phone was blowing up all day. My D27 and I were having dinner when she brought up a very large painting I had done. It was a school project that was supposed to describe a relationship and be a self portrait as an animal. I had painted a leopard in the center foreground with a collar. Connected to the collar was a heavy chain which was being held by a severed hand that the leopard had in its mouth. The gaze of the leopard came directly out of the picture and it's eyes were odd for a leopard...my very green eyes. It was gory, and graphic with other "parts" lying around (I was young). D27 remembered it and asked if I still had it because she remembered it and wanted it. I told her I threw it away and she asked why. I told her, as it was about an old relationship and I was in love with her dad at the time, that he had also asked why and I had said "It's not who I am anymore". I then thought for a bit. If I were to paint it now, I think ex would be attached to the chain...but the leopard would be chewing through the chain. It's much more difficult than tearing the person up, but less destructive...and you DON'T have to still be chained to a small part of them and dragging it around forever and leaving a smelly mess.
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M-51 H-54 2D-27 and 25 M-26 yrs Bombshell and IHS 7-29-15 He moved out 10-3-15 D filed 1-27-16 D final 10-27-16
