I get it, i do but... then she keeps somehow wanting my "approval" as well for what she is doing you know?
Like today, during a quiet moment she was asking me whether i was "ok" with her going on that trip with her male friend like she was asking for permission kinda? I kept cool and told her that if she really felt like she wanted to do this then she should and that it was not up to me to decide for her. I also told her that i did at first feel a little strange about the whole situation but that after thinking it over, it shouldn't be a big deal which is kinda the truth.
I also told her that if roles were reversed SHE would feel very strange about it to say the least if i were to go off on some trip to a foreign country with a female friend that was supposedly lesbian and even she had to agree there lol.
So yeah, she sometimes is not without self awareness and moments like those make me feel like all hope may not be lost just yet.
Anyways i have to work on keeping my expectations LOWER and yet be a content person by myself, but exactly THAT point is very hard to achieve it seems, since i have ever only felt "complete" with her, so this is a whole new ball game now.
