I don't want a divorce

[KitCat]

Thanks for the confidence booster... it helps me keep my PMA!!!

We do seem to have some positive interactions but then he always retreats again the very next day. That's been hard but this time around I think I'm detaching a bit better and not letting it get a response out of me.

He was exhausted when I got him up for dinner. He didn't truly complain about dinner but did point out what was wrong with it. I'm sure in his mind he thinks he is just trying to help me out so the next time I cook venison its better? Sometimes I'm great with the venison and other times he says I overcook or undercook. It really is a crap shoot for me.

Because he is somber and not really looking at me rather than upbeat and at least saying thanks for making dinner, I always take it as a criticism. It really took me some time on my own to tell myself NOT to take it personally... he is tired... if he can't appreciate someone making him dinner completely his loss.

After dinner I started packing up wet laundry and hauling it to my car. I then stepped in and told him I would see him later... he said ok... then suddenly he added where are you going? I said laundermat and left. I left him alone to finish up before heading to work.

He texted me a couple of hours later to say he was only working Saturday so far.

I didn't reply. Don't need to. He already knows how I feel about him working himself silly. He will see I got and read the text message. There is nothing for me to do.

I'm done chasing... going to bed!!!




It was along quiet night but I did not return any texts.

H came home this morning while I was still in bed and he was doing dishes.

I get up and say good morning as pleasant as ever. I get some grumbled response. No worries. I keep doing my morning. Then he says see ya later. I asked where he was off to... ugh.. sorry knee jerk reaction. I know I must work on this!!! He said for oil change. Off he went.

He did come back before I left for work. I just ignored him. Then he starts tackling the dryer. Surprised he was even going to work on it cause I do have someone coming but not for 2 weeks. I left it go and left for work.

Then he is texting me a lot. Asked only 1 question so I only responded once. The rest I read and went on. They were nothing big but just telling me where he was and what he was up to.

Thank goodness work is crazy busy today. I am not even really thinking about H today.