I don't get this woman. I mean... the last couple days she was somewhat "tender" towards me, hugging me, always searching for physical contact, even gave me a kiss on the cheek the other day while we were just sitting there playing cards with our son.
So i kinda took all that as at least SOMEWHAT "positive" signs right? Sure, i know, always keeping my expectations in check but it showed me that she sort of still cares a little about me at least right?
Then today, she tells me that her new best friend, and i won't call him OM (yet?) because apparently he's gay (i'm not naive btw but then i also kinda do believe her at the same time) suggested they go on a vacation for a weekend or 3 days to a foreign city.
She's all excited now and they were planning their stay and details about the trip all day long via text messaging, she basically was texting all day long with only few intermissions...
Yeah. I KNOW what that sounds like, but then i don't get those conflicting signals she is sending me, like why hug me and show me affection? Is it possible that she really DOES only want to go there with him as a friend? Am i making myself go crazy because of maybe unfounded jealousy?
And yes i know that even if there is no sexual component to them, it's always kind of emotional cheating right? When you are THAT absorbed by somebody else, then that kind of does take things too far doesn't it?
As you can see it's VERY hard for me to differentiate here from what is right and wrong and how much is ENOUGH for me? Where do i draw the line? You'll probably tell me that only I can answer that question sigh...
Anyway i can sort of "feel" that she is torn and undecided still and doesn't know what she wants and maybe we need to take it a step further to find out? She even said the other day "maybe we do need to divorce to find out whether we are supposed to be together or not"
Thoughts, comments, all appreciated!
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