I'm so sorry you are having such crappy luck. Reminds me of something my dad says all the time "if it weren't for the bad luck I have, I wouldn't have any luck at all".
I concur with what others have said before me and what you already know.......don't prolong something that is inevitable. You gave this guy more than a fair shake and he's not your cup of tea. DO NOT SETTLE! If I learned anything at all from my marriage, that was the biggest lesson. I know you now that, though.
I hate that it looks like your trip will be cancelled, but absolutely, you should treat yourself, particularly if you don't get to go. Go do something fun and just pamper yourself and have a good time. It will be worth it! Hang in there, lady! Life can be tough, but you are much tougher!
Me 52, H53 Bomb drop 9/29/2014 Divorce from XH final 12/17/2014 Marriage #2 12/31/2019 5 adult (step)daughters (3 from XH's first marriage, 2 from current H's previous relationships) 6 grandkids
