LBS - MLC H who's an alcoholic

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I’m pretty sure my WH met the OW at some work function/event. He is always staying out late and drinking with people at these things. Double life really. It was as if he’s two people. The one trying to be a good husband and father whilst at home and the one who once out the door becomes a single, party crazy, man. He did drink at home, a lot, don’t get me wrong. But on the couch in front of the TV and then fall asleep is very different than the late night binges that he does away from home.

The weird thing is that I’ve always viewed him as an introvert, but he claims he’s an extrovert. I know it’s the drink that fuels that for him.

I’ve been studying the Kubler-Ross cycle of depression and grief. It does feel like my husband has died and I have to see his ghost visiting my daughter every weekend. I revert to previous parts of the grief each time I see him and then have to start over again after he leaves. I breathe a big sigh of releaf when he’s gone yet at the same time am sad that he goes. I’m now on anti depressants so that’s helping.

I’m also going to two Alanon meetings this weekend so that should help. I need to regain my sanity.

Can’t thank you guys enough for hanging in there with me!