Interesting that this thread was bumped up because this morning I was sitting at my desk and suddenly thought of a song I haven't heard in a while. I don't even know the name of it but the refrain is "where have you been all my li-i-i-i-i-ife ,where have you been all my li-i-i-i-i-ife ..." When I was BD'd nearly 6 years ago I joined a gym and right away went almost every day. That song played at least once every time I was there. That was a very, very difficult time for me filled with anxiety attacks and depression and just raw fear, even working out didn't dissipate a lot of that, especially early on. Incredibly, just thinking about the song today gave me a mini anxiety attack and at first I didn't even know why! Then I remembered where I knew the song from, and more importantly "when" I knew it from. Crazy the things that trigger us.
On another note, when I finally started recovering from BD one of my favorite songs to crank in the car was Alanis Morissette - You Oughta Know, I just really identified with the "I'll look calm on the outside but inside it's another story" attitude it portrays, or maybe more like "I love you and miss you but I hate you at the same time" LOL!
I want you to know, that I am happy for you I wish nothing but the best for you both An older version of me Is she perverted like me? Would she go down on you in a theater? Does she speak eloquently And would she have your baby? I'm sure she'd make a really excellent mother
'Cause the love that you gave that we made Wasn't able to make it enough for you To be open wide, no And every time you speak her name Does she know how you told me You'd hold me until you died 'Til you died, but you're still alive
And I'm here, to remind you Of the mess you left when you went away It's not fair, to deny me Of the cross I bear that you gave to me You, you, you oughta know
You seem very well, things look peaceful I'm not quite as well, I thought you should know Did you forget about me, Mr. Duplicity? I hate to bug you in the middle of dinner It was a slap in the face How quickly I was replaced And are you thinking of me when you -bleep- her?
(refrain)
'Cause the joke that you laid in the bed That was me and I'm not gonna fade As soon as you close your eyes, and you know it And every time I scratch my nails Down someone else's back I hope you feel it Well, can you feel it?
