Should I stay? Should I go? I need help for real

[Gordie]

3,

In your original post you said you were alone and may wind up dead. I felt the same after b d. This is not an anti-suicide website but I would encourage you to call an anti-suicide hotline if you ever feel that way. Pre program the number on your phone in case you need it. They can really help. Peace, you are stronger than you think. I understand how your situation can be all consuming, but it really will get better. There are brighter days ahead, even if it doesn’t feel that way right now.