Like is said at the beginning of many situations, when you have space and time to heal and really see things from an outside perspective it can really change how you see someone...
Statements like she made this weekend, I have seen so many that I mishandled through the years just like it and although I wasn’t planning to walk out, it wasn’t a life that was making me happy. It always will be and always has been about her..
I think the only thing I would still beat myself up about is that I helped breed what I’m having to deal with now. I fed the personality with not sticking to my principles, my boundaries if you will, and allowed this to grow and fester...
That our kids are used as pawns in her attempts to control and she has no problem using them in that way. It’s sad that even through mediation, I’m not sure she will ever really see it. She said this week that she is self aware that she got angry with me and that the health and schooling are important to her.. I’ve tried to explain to her before that she has anger issues because she gets angry she will ‘punish’ someone she says she cares about. That her anger is directed at someone.. The latest example being that she was angry with me and is willing to punish daughter during the process. I said that this is not communication and it is not how she will improve things with me.
