Bye bye limbo -- it's time for a change

[mleigh4]

Hi Bttrfly, I hope you are right about me. It got tense last night while doing taxes. She initially suggested filing together and I really put my foot down to clarify nicely that his income and taxes are his problem and mine is mine. Separate them! When asked about the home, I made it clear he pays half the mortgage and that's it, I take care of it. When asked about S expenses, I kept quiet and let him say it's 50/50. Ha, not when I have him more and take care of so much more than him, but I stayed quiet. It's just taxes right now. But what will I be like during mediation? I could feel the anger in me bubbling. I could feel the disgust towards him and his choices.

It worries me, but I guess knowing that fear, I can work on preparing myself to stay calm. I can't let my emotions take over and make me look like an angry wife while he sits there calm and quiet. That's kind of how I felt last night.

I guess that work is up to me! So much worry floating around in my head, I'm so tired of it and just want it over. Again, that's up to me.

Thanks for listening friends. It feels so nice to talk to people that understand. The divorce group meets Thursday and I am working on getting in.

M