Hoping this can be saved, but having doubts

[reframe]

Update:

The last week or so has been a whirlwind.

I had a session with Chuck, which went very well. He indicated that I am doing a lot of things right. So while I tend to focus on a lot of the negatives in my interactions, there are some glimmers of light.

I'm continuing to try and balance non-pursuit with "light love" (as he called it).
He felt that light physical affection was OK, provided I don't let it effect me if she's isn't receptive to it.

I spent a week without doing any spying, after realizing that it was only hurting my mental state and moods. I'm trying to continue with that. The proof will be in how she interacts toward me, and what she's intending to do in the future will change much more slowly (if it changes at all)


This weekend we spent the majority of Friday and Saturday together, and seemed to sincerely enjoy each other's company. We some real sadness without of out pets, but in a way it brought us closer and seemed to be giving us a chance to support each other.

We also had an anniversary. That was rough. On previous years she had made big, public declarations of love for me (including last year). Since how much things have apparently changed in the last year has really rocked me, and I'm struggling a lot today.