So basically... we had a "discussion" yesterday evening that got somewhat heated and it was actually her telling me that i am ignoring her efforts to get back together, so she got mad and it ended with her kinda giving me an Ultimatum "Either love me, or leave me"
And you know what? She's right! I mean... i AM purposely giving her the cold shoulder when she has tried multiple times now to initiate intimacy...
The thing is, it just doesn't feel RIGHT you know? I don't feel that warmth, that vulnerability, that LOVE emanating from her like it used to before her MLC. All i see is the MLCer that is more pre-occupied with her new fun life than with me and so i am not sure what she is trying to do exactly when she is initiating intimacy?? Does she do it just to see how i react? DOes she genuinely believe that a serious relationship is possible the way she is right now? Does she just want casual sex?
Honestly, i feel like i'd be betraying myself and all i have now fought for by giving in.
But then, on the other hand, maybe i am just scared? I am so afraid of getting hurt again that i'd rather not give her a chance... Yes she IS "imperfect" right now, she is unstable and volatile and messy and totally contradictory. A part of her is also the woman i used to love and still do love though.
What do you guys think? If she really wants to give it a shot, won't i be destroying my chances by rejecting her now? My gut tells me to not give in but i have been wrong before about these things and i am really confused
