I am even tamping down the TMI. You all want a good laugh at the joke that is my love life? I'll keep it short and to the point.
The man erectile dysfunction! Yup, you heard me right! HAHA on the girl who wanted to get it on early in the game! First, I was freaked because the last 2 guys I dated couldn't get it to work right for the first time. With them, it was definitely anxiety, each for their own individual reasons. They got over it and all was very good once they did.
This one, however, it is a known problem, apparently. Only "this is the worse it's been". Mind you, he is my age. Truth be told, he is not in good shape at all. He is overweight and doesn't really exercise and makes awful food choices. He also has not been to the doctor in 7 years. He only goes when something is "wrong". And the last time he went, they told him he was pre diabetic. He was extremely overweight then and he changed his lifestyle and lost a lot of weight, but it didn't last.
The ED is a turnoff, but I am very understanding about it. What the turnoff is, is that this guy has admittedly done nothing to help himself. I was talking to my cousin and her husband about it and her husband said "there are many men out there who will cut their finger off an dput it back together with duct tape so they don't go to the doctor, but when it comes to their d!ck malfunctioning, they will run to the doctor!"
It is obvious this is related to his poor health. And that is a huge turn-off. So something about it. When he was beating himself up over it, I was honest with him. I said I am understanding and I won't run away because of it, but I can't stick around if you aren't going to do something about it.
Also, we really don't have a large amount in common, he is big video gamer, hates the gym, ect. He does like to go out and hike in the nice weather which I love. We did have good dates. He brought me flowers again yesterday.
I really don't know where I am going to go with this, to be honest. I don't have to cut and run right this minute. But yes, as we go on more dates, we get to know someone better. I am not going to force something to work, I am just going to see where it flows. I am also not going to wait a whole bunch of time if I am not feeling it and he is not proactive.
I came to post this to just get it out there. I know everyone will probably have an opinion of whether I should run or not, but I ask kindly not to give it right now. It's kind of something I need to figure out for myself.
In other news. When we were at lunch yesterday, I got a FB message from hot young PT assistant. ANd I felt a wave of excitement. This guy has been promising to make my daughter floam ( a form of this slime making fad my child is obsessed with). I might be discharged this week, so on Thursday, he said he is going to do it on sunday. He bought all the supplies. He sent me a pic on FB of all the supplies and said "this is how I ma spending my sunday!" Then he sent the finished product. I thanked him and told him how happy he was going to make a special little girl. He told me he was worried about sending the messages because he was afraid it might be creepy. I told him not at all, and I made a joke about the weirdo pt at PT who had a thing for him and would ask him if wanted to "feed his ponies" I said "not inappropriate at all, I thought it was very sweet. You didn't ask me to feed your pony or anything" we got a good laugh.
This guy is 25 years old, and everything I wanted and needed at 25. I wish I was 10 years younger. There is definitely a chemistry there, but nothing we can ever do about it. But the guy he is more mature than any guy I have ever dated, actually. There is some lucky woman who is really going to hit the jackpot when she marries him.
That was long-winded and there is more, but I'll get back later.
