Your advice to me has been most welcome and thoughtful. I would love to be able to help you as much as you have helped me. I also have learned and gained many insights following and reading your sitch. The challenging questions posed to you, I have thought them over for myself. For example from Mach1:
Can you tell me that you are EXCITED to come home every night ??
Gordie, I am not excited to come home. I am not excited for work. I do not look forward to the weekends. Before BD I was excited about life, work, weekends, and future. I was a happy and content person. So why not now? I feel something is missing. I don’t know what. The only thing missing is W. Same house, all the stuff in the house, kids all the time, same vehicles, same people at work, I have everything I had before. So what am I missing? It is nothing external or material. Maybe I have fears. I don’t know, but I won’t preclude it since I do not know the cause it could be fear.
I am living right now day by day. I am living for my future happiness. I would like to be happy today.
Gordie please pass on some of your awesome advice. I could really use it, and maybe so can you.
Feelings are fleeting. Be better, not bitter. Love the person, forgive the sin.
