Please stop telling over and over that you don't want a divorce. You are doing better, making stronger actions, looking stronger too......but then you feel you have to cave to her manipulation and tell her again how you don't wan't it.......and that fuels her to keep playing this merry-go-around.
Every time you tell her you don't want the D, it makes you look weak. And she is going to manipulate you like putty. Look, everything you do from here on out is going to make her mad. Did you see how she twisted the truth to sound like it was you wanting a D? She knows the truth, but that is her way of sticking the dagger in your heart. Don't fall for her tricks.
If you don't want her in the house when you aren't there, then change the locks that key fits.
Remember, strength and honor.
It is not about what you feel should work in your M. It is about doing the work that gets the right results. Do what works!