Gordie #17: deliberately not divorced

[Lifes Twists]

Gordie,

Right now you are trying to drive while looking in the rear view mirror. Kinda hard when you are stuck on where you have been and not where you are going. usually ends quit disastrously.

Like most of us, you have been through a very traumatic event. I had never even consider going to a counselor on a weekly basis before this happened. I went for two years after. Eventually my counselor said I was suffering from PTSD. I think most of us here are at one time or another. We are always looking back, trying to figure out what we did or didn't do and how we can fix it so all this goes away. Doesn't happen. What all of us have to do is figure out how to go forward and learn from our mistakes.

This is about you right now. Not anyone else, not even she who will not be mentioned. You have to take care of your self. You need to get yourself healthy again for the kids. I can only suggest you start focusing on where YOU are going. This means looking deep inside and figuring who Gordie wants to be and heading off in that direction. At times it will be a lonely trip, but it will have bright moments along the way and hopefully end up in a great place.

If you don't get yourself going, you will never get there.