I guess overall things went OK! I mean, we got into a fight once where i had to actually leave the place to get some air for things not to escalate further. When i got back, she was a lot calmer, so i gave her a hug and things went well for the rest of our time there. I guess overall we're being a lot nicer to each other but that is maybe more due to the fact that i am now somewhat "catering" to her needs more and just kind of getting better at accepting the fact that things will be different from now on.
She IS trying to start things with me once in a while, like she's trying to seduce me but i won't have it and i think she is starting to get that now.
On the way home we had a pretty big talk where i was brutally honest with her and i told her that the reason i can't take her back right now is because she flat out broke my heart and i need time to heal and to see that things can be stable again. Well, she was VERY surprised to hear that!!! She would have never guessed that she broke my heart by doing what she did!! LOL, i mean how far removed from reality can you BE?? That is not what i told her obviously but i thought to myself "well DUH, when the love of your life that you have been with for nearly 20 years and that you envisioned the rest of your life with basically tells you it's over and she wants divorce, OF COURSE you're gonna be freaking heart-broken!!!"
Anyway, i kept my cool and we had a good long talk and as usual i am not sure ANY of this sticks in the long term but it felt good to get it off my chest anyways!
Things have been quieter, calmer now and i am not sure to take that as a good sign or not but hey, i take what i can get right?
She is still very self absorbed, and kind of does the same things as before but i get the feeling that she is less angry with me now, though who knows how long that will last lol.
