Infidelity/WAH, my story pt 12, D on hold

[PsySara]

Taking care of the puppy doesn't bother me, I have two French bulldogs and I just combine their care. It irritates me that he is neglecting a living thing after only having it about 6 weeks.

I filed this week and the lawyer will contact me when I can have WH served. Last night he went out to bowl with friends. I stayed home with the kids and we just relaxed and eventually fell asleep cuddled up together. Today WH is going out to some bike thing and will be gone most of the day. I actually look forward to him not being here, I can relax and enjoy the kids. I've always been a bit of a homebody so I am just chilling and playing with the kids. A friend of mine may stop by later just to hang out and chat.

In a few weeks WH will be taking the kids to WDW with some of his family, meanwhile he barely does any of the day to day child care. He has literally become the definitive "Disney dad." Oh the irony.

I signed up to take my boards this Fall and have been studying after I put the kids to bed, I am doing fairly well on the practice exams. I also interviewed for another job, it will be outpatient and lower demand for same pay. It is also about a 10 min drive from my home versus the 30 min drive I have twice daily. I really can't find any "downside" to this change. I will also have holidays off and no calls. Seriously, it's win/win.

My feelings are all over the place. I am grieving the fact that my children will be from a broken home. I am grieving the loss of my dream of a loving and strong marriage. I am grieving the loss of what I thought my WH was, it seems he never was the person I thought I married.