Long time reader, first time poster pt.4

[marina7]

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Yes us LBS we live in a fantasy world that our W/H will snap out of it, now that I look back my W been a war with herself before bd it was like getting the rug pull off me because I at the moment didn't see it. But when I go back through our text,e-mails or pictures I see W was gone but holding on I mean literally 3 weeks even the bd came W said let's adopt another baby or let's try to have one. And we where looking to build a New home. I honestly think that our spouses are fighting hard before bd.

I also won't sugar coat your child has a long road. I have 3 beautiful kids we adopted my s9 and d9 took it hard emotions everywhere, they even beg there mom in there knees please give my other mom a chance please don't break our family W no emotions it was crazy seeing my kids this way. S8 was more quite reserved at first I thought myself HAPPY but what happen is reality didn't kick in for him till 6 to 7 months later tears flowing, not sleeping,wetting the bed, bad behavior in school my s8 was once a happy child. We are in a better place since lots of therapy and constantly showing them love and reminding them is not there fault. It has drained me emotionally and physically because my kids are hurting and I can't take the pain away. But I can tell you it gets better we literally live a day at a time. Everyday is a new day. And the healing gets better.

Just remember take care of yourself so you can be there for your son because he will need you. I wish you luck in this journey and just take it a day at a time.