I think that you are hiding from yourself..

I think that you are making decisions based on fear, and you have zero clue as to why you are afraid ...

And I think that you use that fear as a tool to tuck yourself away in your nice little cozy place so that you do not have to face yourself..

Gordie.....you aren't happy with yourself right now, let alone the situation that you have allowed yourself to continue.

You keep making decisions based on everything except Gordie, and you hide behind those decisions.

Being the Martyr is only gonna last for so long.

What are you left with after that ??

Your fear keeps you hidden away from any type of real happiness.

The bad part is...??

That you know that..

And before you think that I am pushing you to move out still, or whatever.

This isn't about that at all...

I support you fully in whatever you decide to do..

AS LONG AS YOU ARE WORKING TOWARD FINDING PEACE AND HAPPINESS...

But you aren't....



Can you tell me that you are EXCITED to come home every night ??

So, tell me that I am wrong...

Tell me to F off...

Tell me something......


What are you so afraid of ???

Are you afraid of being Divorced ??

Alone ??

A single parent ??

What are you so afraid of ????

Why are you so afraid of yourself ???