Thank you to all who have been holding me accountable and have given me advice. It is greatly appreciated. The advice is huge but more importantly is the cathartic nature of posting here. Since I never did really take up journaling as so many marriage fix experts recommend, this is the closest I come to it.
Just a brief update. W went to dinner with her best friend last night. Her best friend is also a member of the church and is a huge influence on my WW. If not for her and her other close church friends, whom would not approve of her behavior and she knows it, I think she would have been gone or moved on to a PA a long time ago.
That is both a blessing and a curse. On the one hand she is still here and at least making a partial effort to move towards reconciling. On the other hand who wants to be with someone that is only there because they are guilted into staying? (Guilted isn't a word? WHO KNEW?)
Anyway, I could have snooped on her desktop PC. Between Google My Activity and Chrome history (which is device agnostic) you can gather quite a bit of intelligence. However, I refrained! In fact, I was never really tempted to do it. A brief thought crossed my mind when I walked by her office, but i dismissed it and that was that. Went back to watching the Olympics.
Small victories. Oh and it has been 24 hours since I initiated a R discussion!
M(53), W(54),D(19) M-23, T-25 Bomb Drop - Dec.23, 2017 Ring and Piecing since March 2018
