Wife on antidepressants, acting strange!

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I feel so low. My self-esteem is in the toilet. Ironically, I keep looking to her to save me from that. The fixer has turned into the fixee. The saver into the one wanting to be saved. The difference is she doesn't care enough to want to fix or save me.

This is what I said to you yesterday before you told me how you werent concerned with GAL as you had it all figured out.

With that said, I would turn your focus towards your GAL. And not just hanging out with your friends and shooting the [censored]. I mean going out and doing NEW things and meeting NEW people. Rebuilding your 'swagger' is so difficult and yet so critical at this stage. Obsessing about every little detail in the sitch is exhausting and self-defeating.

I would say that getting out of the house is certainly step 1. Its hard enough to get up and go anywhere when all you want to do is bury your head in your pillow and hope that this all blows over and you can wake up in that blissful ignorance of pre-BD again. I know....Ive been there.

I started by GAL by hanging out with my friends. And you know what I did while I was there? Talked about my sitch. A lot of good that did in taking my mind off of my sitch! When I started to actually feel better was when I went out and did new things. I joined a gaming group. That turned into a fantasy football league. That turned into other things and so on. Eventually I had a whole new crew of friends and acquaintances that knew nothing of my XW or my sitch.

THAT is what I want for you to experience. Thats how you can being to actually detach. It isnt a switch you can turn on or off: "Im going to detach today". Doesnt work that way. You need to be focused on other things. You need to be living such an awesome life that it is HER loss for missing out.

YOU are the prize, Steve. Not her.

Remember that.