Picking up Her MESS #2

[marina7]

Hello everyone,
Vanilla,

I guess I expect all this to be over soon, as I never delt with this or have myself heard a parent seperating kids.

Well W didn't show up infact W doesn't show up only her lawyer. As ya all might know I am struggling there's days I wonder can I become homeless due to this but I know I have to fight for my kids.

Court is slow all I can say the system has failed us now I understand when I hear a mother or father giving up. Btw which I won't so we had a guardian ad litem for pro bono well apparently this guardian ad litem use to work for W lawyer lawfirm so denied due to conflict so w lawyer said 50/50 which we have to pay. Only God knows my struggles I can't even afford my lawyer as I literally sell my things to hire my lawyer. So I ask how can I afford this.

I don't have family I have unfortunately a sad childhood story family in and out of jail,drugs ect I got away from that 20+ years ago and been on my own. I always done everything on my own where W has family they are dysfunction but they do stick together so I know W has emotinally and financial support.

So basically is I either walk away from this and lose my first son or I fight and give it all which is nothing. I literally had back surgery going in for another one. I get no help and the little money I get is to keep a roof over s8 and d9 literally we penny pinch every thing. My kids see coins in floor and put in jar to say mom we going help. This breaks my heart.

I try to stay positive because I know there's someone worse out there some family don't even have a roof over there heads. God knows I need a miracle to happen. So let's see what's next my lawyer is petitioning again but we all know all this cost money. So am truly losing all hope. But God will lead the way.

A day at a time